Self-Reflection for Lunch

Revolution: You (I) can't practice growth and self-nurturing by removing yourself from the very environment and triggers which threaten repeated collapse and unraveling. I'm not even talking about a physical environment, necessarily. I'm talking about the place in your head/heart that you come to when you're low. In that place is where practice needs to occur--not when you've recovered for a time being and can muster up the stamina easier. That is about as useful as practicing air guitar. You may continually question God about why your heart returns to a particular sickly state over and over and over when you really do want to "try." And then you do try, but you try during those states when it comes naturally and it's fairly easy. Toughened skin comes only with friction.

If you want to give back to the world, develop self-love by forcing callouses over the tender spots that continually fall onto the thorns. And by callouses, I mean replace tenderness disguised as uncertainty and fear with the tenderness that is trust and self-acceptance. In time, you'll see a glow in the darkness.

Comments

[Tammy Kushnir]

beautiful. With OCD I think this is especially true...you keep coming back to the low points only to hopefully /eventually become stronger for it:)

[Lesley]

That is very insightful Tonia...thanks!

[Beverly Gilbert]

And the thorns aren't able to break your skin anymore. Take care of you!

[Sandy]

Thank you Tonia, I needed this today.